I've come all unfocused. There has been laughter lately, as much as ever, but my mood these last few days reminds me of a P.T. Anderson movie, where the seemingly lighthearted events are underscored by a tense and ominous musical tone.

I've lost connection with the bigger things. I feel a little lost, period.

I feel like I don't matter very much, though I know I do. I just have to keep moving, and this too shall pass. It's just not been a very easy time for me, and if pressed, it'd be hard for me to explain why.

A return to the things I can control...

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