I was talking to Herbie the other night, about looking forward to the summer with both excitement and apprehension. I told him that I love the freedom that I feel, that sense of new beginnings and all that, but I told him that I was still trying to fill my emptiness. He looked at me and said, "We all are." That made me feel a lot better and a whole lot less alone.

My friends, you have such integrity! Take a bow!

Something tells me this will be a wonderful summer: paperbacks on trains, cane fields, rain on apartment windows, the excitement of new love, the thrill of leavetaking.

Who's up for a long roadtrip?

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