This has been without a doubt the most intense week or so of my life. I've got nothing left. I'm full of noise and strings. I can't look myself in the eye sometimes I reach for you in the early morning rising glory and forget that you're not there. Shutting it down with friends around, don't be offended if I'm lost in the maze I've made.
I haven't slept in 28.5 hours now. I can't deal with things any better than I could when I was a teenager. Right now I feel that I'm falling, and the background noise makes a steady, almost tuneful hum. I'm so out of control, if I were into drugs, I'd have been dead by now.
I guess this is what it means to be alive.
Spinning.
Fuck!

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